22nd

I called the past two weeks as the 'embracing sadness' week as I lost my cat and things began to scramble in the way I've never expected before.  I came down with severe flu, cough, and respiratory problem. I have been developing skin rash spread around my legs and my back. I have no idea why…

Music Questions

Some questions are taken from here A song you like with a color in the title The GazettE - 白き優鬱 (Shiroki Yuutsu/White Melancholy) When it comes to heartbreaking song, their songs are a perfect sanctuary. My most favourite denial song. A song you like with a number in the title School Food Punishment - 04.59 Have…

nope

I've never expected that self-loathing is true. I used to believe "how can one hate oneself so much". I have no idea that it will be this burdening. I've never thought of professional help because I thought it's silly. But, maybe, in the future, when these anxiety and self-hatred kick in, I'll seek for one.…

Ketakutan Diri Sendiri

Tulisan ini terinspirasi dari penulis kesukaan saya, Aan Mansyur Pada tahun ini, saya takut apabila saya tidak bisa mendapatkan apa yang saya impikan. Atau barangkali cinta kandas di tengah jalan. Saya takut apabila suatu hari nanti, saya mendapat kabar buruk dari orang yang tidak saya kenal tentang orang tua saya. Saya takut kehilangan teman. Saya…

Reading Meme

Taken from here What have you just read? The last thing I finished was Rainbow Cowell's Fangirl and I was disappointed. Yes, I read the entire chapters with the anticipation that something would spice up Cath's wishy-washy story but I just couldn't find the peak of conflict. The fight between sisters were fine but repeated scenes…

Book Question Meme

Taken from here 1. What new book coming out soon do you plan to buy? It's everyone's anticipation: Lang Leav's Sad Girl.  I am so ready for being vulnerable after reading this one.   2. What series is a must read for you? Adult series never impress me as much as children and young reader's.…

New house and….home

I moved to this (far-from-everyone's) house two months ago. Mom got this house last year.  Initially, we would begin moving in the end of January, but Dad changed his mind, so we emptied the  house earlier. Not to mention, mom and dad will be busied by UNBK preparations in their school. Anyway,  the house that I am currently…